The past few weeks have been more than stressful for me. I have broken down many times in tears. I never thought this move would be difficult. This situation has ripped the reigns from my hands more than once along the way and takes me for a ride I had not intended.

We just found out our back up plan is gone. So, with 1 week until we need to move and the first day of school looming on Aug 9th, Im panicking.

The thought of my children being homeless or living in a van down by the river, is more than depressing. I feel like Im spinning in all directions with no where to go.

Im trying to hang on as we once again scramble for somewhere to live.

I went to a stake fireside to hear Jenny Oaks Baker play her violin. It was magnificent and powerful. I have thought of it many times these past few days. I have thought of the song that moved me to uncontrollable tears. "Be still , my soul".

I have always enjoyed the song, but never felt its power until that night.I was reading the words along to the sweet melody she played and instantly felt power in the first lines.

"Be still, my soul: the lord is on thy side;

with patience bear thy cross of grief or pain.

Leave to thy God, to order and provided;

in ev'ry change he faithful will remain."

I dont know if I am fully utilizing the message. I do have faith, but sometimes its hard to bear thy cross patiently.

Granted, this is trivial compared to many trials. Im just feeling so unsure about what to do and where to go.

"Be still, my soul: Thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as he has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last"